I feel guilty.
I feel guilty because I'm not a good enough wife and mother. I feel guilty because I don't spend enough time with my disabled aunt. Then, I feel guilty because I don't devote enough of myself to helping my students succeed. And after all of those beatings, I feel guilty I don't relish in the time I have with my sweet grandmother, the only grandparent I have left. On top of it all, I feel guilty I'm not giving my time adequately at church or, most importantly, at home being still with God.
"Be still and know that I am God." Psalm 46:10
When do I stop long enough to realize that He is God? When do I stand still to let my sensibility quench my guilt? When do I sit in silence basking in awe of my Savior? I don't do these things enough. Herein lies the problem. The only way I'll ever stop condemning myself is to sit at the feet of the One who died for me so that I wouldn't be condemned.
Be still, Christie. My yoke is easy; my burden is light.
Thank you for that word - guilty! I don't usually allow myself to feel guilty, but the older I get, I am aware of those guilt PINGS. I should call my mom more often - she's the only parent I have. I shouldn't have responded in anger . . . You aren't alone, but thank you for reminded ME to be still.
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