Surrender

Somehow, I missed the Mercy Me song The Hurt and the Healer, but I listened to the words for the first time last week on the way to work. What truth! They nailed it--a beautiful reminder of what true surrender to God entails. God wants us to surrender everything to Him, especially our hurt.

Here are the lyrics:

Why?
The question that is never far away
The healing doesn't come from the explained
Jesus please don't let this go in vain
You're all I have
All that remains
So here I am
What's left of me
Where glory meets my suffering

I'm alive
Even though a part of me has died
You take my heart and breathe it back to life
I've fallen into Your arms open wide
When the hurt and the healer collide

Breathe
Sometimes I feel it's all that I can do
Pain so deep that I can hardly move
Just keep my eyes completely fixed on You
Lord take hold and pull me through
So here I am
What's left of me
Where glory meets my suffering

I'm alive
Even though a part of me has died
You take my heart and breathe it back to life
I've fallen into your arms open wide
When the hurt and the healer collide

It's the moment when humanity
Is overcome by majesty
When grace is ushered in for good
And all the scars are understood
When mercy takes its rightful place
And all these questions fade away
When out of the weakness we must bow
And hear You say, "It's over now"

I'm alive
Even though a part of me has died
You take my heart and breathe it back to life
I've fallen into your arms open wide
When the hurt and the healer collide

Jesus come and break my fear
Awake my heart and take my tears
Find Your glory even here
When the hurt and the healer collide
Jesus come and break my fear
Awake my heart and take my tears
Find Your glory even here 


Hurt is complicated because of its terrible domino effect leading to anger, doubts, fears, insecurities, sufferings, scars, and weaknesses, just to name a few. Then comes the numbness and indifference or even worse, bitterness. Just like the lyrics state, "I'm alive even though a part of me has died." Hurt can make one feel very alive at first. When I hurt, I am reminded how mortal I am because the pain can be unbearable, but then the grieving consumes me until I feel dead inside. God wants us to die; surrender is dying to self daily. The beauty of hurt is that it kills off parts of self bit by bit so that we become more and more dependent upon Him for everything in this short life.

So surrender your
hurt,
anger,
doubts,
fears,
insecurities,
sufferings,
scars,
weaknesses,
numbness,
indifference,
bitterness,
dead self.
Then live.

Listen to The Hurt and the Healer. I pray it encourages you as much as it encourages me.